Items I checked off my to-do list today:

• Work ✔
• Study Russian ✔

Items I failed to check off my list:

• Map the stairwells ✘
• Enter the secret courtyard ✘

I sort of went out, but I feel terrible today. I think it’s because I haven’t been eating. I thought I could feed myself and be right back to normal, but I got ten steps from my door and slid down the wall.

(I kept going, though. I found this fire alarm.)

I did a few other things I wouldn’t normally do, if I felt sick and frightened.

I answered the phone. Normally, I’d ignore that.

I told my boss I might finish my current book on Monday, not Friday. I don’t usually request extensions. It’s simpler to stick to the schedule. This week, that might be difficult. (I’ll still shoot for Friday, but I’ve bought myself a buffer.)

I made myself eat three tablespoons of potato salad, even though it had mayonnaise. I hate mayonnaise. Most days, I’d have given up, but today I finished eating.

I still feel quite bad. I can’t move without breaking out in a cold sweat. I need more food and more sleep, or maybe I’ve just caught some bug.

I’ll get comfort food tomorrow. Fruit and soup. Salty snacks. Nothing with mayonnaise. I despise mayonnaise.

I can’t let this happen again.